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i am pony with a vampire's teeth
i kissed a young girl's distressed life away
i am a phony with a coward underneath
i put the wife to shame and had the mistress stay

i am life
and i gave you grapefruit juice
i gave you reason to decide
and bitterness to choose

i am a yellow-spotted lizard
i found a radiating stone
then the seasons changed
and i was left alone.

he said life is a limited window of luck
and love is a hooker on a rainy day

people watch it with facetted eyes
and they miss the big picture
and on their way home they're led astray
by the sweet nectars and miracle lights.

drAFT....

instead of wine we had white tea
to celebrate a naked angel
with a fat stomach
and a stubborn glee.

Have a safe trip,
fugitive baby devil!
(or devil baby)

entering the contest
of the human race
with a content look
on a corrupt face


Have a safe trip through the fire blaze!

get cozy with the governess


Learn to listen
to the tiger's sore old serenade
learn to talk
and learn to watch
the claret evening sky

you'll have a safe trip on this side.

You'll find your slogans
on the walls
but it doesn't feel
like they belong-

they scream
"against all odds
i love you true"
but all the words sound wrong.


(you'll) strut down open boulevards
of youthful charms
then fall into contempt

abhor the birthdays
and the coward
protect the grown man
and the child
chase the windmills
and fight the butterflies.

get a hand on a gun
and play it
all night long.

Quench the fire
with the (only) blanket
turn raisin-white and
sleep out on the porch alone

have a safe journey,
stepchild of a bitter city
have a safe flight
nevermind the zombies
hovering by.

draft...needs,,,,work

these days
the lessons sink in slower
and not every birthday means you're growing up
the stars are hanging lower
and you can act like you have never been in love

these days
a handshake is as good as an embrace
there's no uniqueness here to glorify
since the magic went (down) with her face
and since you learned she, too, has to get by.

These days
we've outgrown our stale distress
cherish the friends who pulled us through
make up with those who left
and depart those we outgrew

these days
the nights are tinged in neon lights
we all stand where we don't belong
and we sing to tell our plights
but in our hearts we don't believe
the angry youth was wrong.

Imagine

Imagine
a nation of disbelievers
with no sense of purpose
and a notion of faith gone wrong
spitting on a Buddha
and actually having fun.

to be one of us (back in the day)

run from an abusive world
with every hair in place
never show the back of your head
and make sure to hide your face

retract the air
and drown your lungs
in septic tar and honesty
learn how much you do not care
celebrate some backyard anarchy
lose ground fast
and drift free

and if you can - do never walk away.
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no title either

you call yourself a poet
because you read books and paid fees
and now you know the strategies

I call myself a singer
because i read about a song
and now i'm reading about rhinos
because i want to claim i'm strong.

no title

So you say you're feeling better
with your hands tied to your back
and your knees down on the floor
and in the vicious face of freedom
you turn around and beg for more

Behind impenetrable nicotine bars
and tainted glass
and under heaps of panties and bras
your childhood kingdom of adventure
has resigned at last

You picture catastrophes
and it always involves another love
you listen too much
to that ape on your back
though you call it "guidance from above"

Just give that monkey
a piggyback ride
and then kiss good-bye that gun
quit frowning at the night
and join our anxious world of fun.

Dear Mom,

I haven't called you
but I am still as good as gold
or just as you remember me

I am pure and i made everything my fault
I have found new friends I care about
I am clear-headed now that I have lost what I did not deserve
I lost it by leaving it behind
I left it because I chose to be free
and then I messed with every girl in town.
I built a reputation there - with pleasure
My life has been disrupted
but i have plans
I am looking at a clean slate
I feel safer now that I have fallen
I am no longer eating on the past
tonight i am going out on a date
i love you

Patrick